Dead or Alive?

“A heart fully alive feels everything more passionately – pleasure and pain – because it is alive. A dead heart feels less in general. The healthier you are with Christ, the more your heart will feel things. It’s sometimes painful to be so alive in a world with so many problems. But the solution is…

Stuck

“Why did you bring me back here?” he asks. “Because here’s where you got stuck,” replies Papa – movie/book “The Shack” The Shack doesn’t sound like an appealing movie judging by its title. I came across this movie title at work yesterday while creating a playlist for an upcoming flight. My playlist title- God. God?…

Tick Tock

Tick Tock goes the clock, when it will stop no one knows. And it will stop. For all of us. For every living thing on this planet. The only thing in this life we can be 100% certain of is that we will die. Our culture refuses to acknowledge this yet all the while spewing…

Every Day is Mother’s Day

Especially when you don’t have one anymore. This hallmark created holiday has arrived and I’ll be thankful once this day is over. As if I don’t feel the hole in my heart that my Mom’s earthly departure carved out enough, this holiday to remind people to call Mom, get a gift for Mom or acknowledge her…

I Got You

Sunday, April 23rd I woke up early this morning after dreaming of my Mom. I was at my childhood home with my Uncle Chuck washing dishes when I saw her outside sobbing. I immediately ran outside and sat on the ground with her and asked why she was crying. She replied that she sees my sadness…

Pain is Forever

Forever. Forever is this very moment. When you are in pain- emotional, spiritual or physical- it can be nearly impossible to experience life beyond that pain. It feels as though it has existed forever before and will continue to persist forever into the future. We cannot conjure up in our minds what life was like before…

Dear Mom

September 17, 2016 (Savannah, GA) Dear Mom,      A whole year has gone by without you in my life. I’ve had you in my life for 27 years + 4 months. I feel lost without you around. Everything has lost its shine. I think of you constantly. When the wind blows, I can’t help…

Back to Life

I woke up this morning to a gorgeous sunny, blue sky day. The breeze was blowing around the wind chimes hanging on my balcony; the very wind chimes my Mom made for me. The sound of the chimes clinking together is very comforting. For once in quite a long while, I felt a shred of…